I am so effing tired of being sick.
I've been sick since September 26th. Well, no, that's not true. But I do remember that day very well because I was up almost all night with Tater for a reason still unknown to me and I missed church because I could barely hold my head up.
Right after that, I got sick. And I've stayed sick.
I had the pneumonia. I knew I had the pneumonia. The doctor didn't believe I had the pneumonia and gave me a weenie antibiotic that I took for an entire week and continued to get steadily worse.
And then I was all like, "Doctor, dude, I told you I have the pneumonia, give me something f'real."
So, he did. And I took that for a week and stopped having fevers and hot flashes.
But the cough and shortness of breath continue to be a problem. Like, I walk up the stairs and at the top, I have to take a rest. There are thirteen steps. Hardly breathless-worthy. I can't take a deep breath or laugh without coughing.
And to top it all off, now my nose is dripping like a hose.
You know how hard it is to give a massage when you can't take a deep breath or take time to repeatedly blow your nose?
Not that I'm doing that massages. I've been "working" for three weeks and managed to give my first for-real-paid-on-a-massage-table-massage yesterday. I don't know if it's good news or bad news, but the dude slept for about 83 minutes of the 90 minute massage. He said it was an outstanding massage, but I have no idea how he'd know that. At least he couldn't hear me sniffling and breathing heavily and think me inappropriate.
Other than that, I do a whole lot of sitting around, which was exactly why I hesitated to take the job in the first place. I detest sitting around (paying others to take care of my children) when I have things at home that could be getting done. Like watching What About Bob.
So, now that I'm done complaining (and on a FRIDAY of all days), here's my prayer for the next week: please let me feel better. A month is a looooooong time to feel cruddy. And please let me be useful (and get paid) at work! Me sitting there is helping no one.