Rolling Around in My Head

1.  I drove over to Houston on Friday night to have dinner at my cousin's house.  They have this beautiful new house on some property outisde Houston city limits  It's surrounded by trees and get this - it's quiet there.  The drive there is on a semi-rural road.  It always does my soul good to drive between fields full of cows.  Plus, I got to be with family.  I love to talk to people who know my history - where I don't have to explain anything.  In fact, I'm pretty sure I talked too much.  Almost unbelievable, I know.

2.  I went to church yesterday for the first time in a month.  The Lentil has decided that the best position for her to be in is with her head resting on my sciatic nerve and her feet playing soccer with my bladder.  Is that even possible?  I kept having to leave the 3-year-olds alone to run to the bathroom and then having to ease back into my chair like an old lady every time I came back.  By the end of church, after nearly two hours of wrestling with little kids, I had a shooting pain down the back of my left leg, three near bladder control issues, and a headache.  It made me feel even worse because there are other pregnant women who've done this successfully, right??

3. And speaking of the Sunbeam class, they've gone ahead and released the girl I was working with - the one who came to church every week - and hooked me up with another lady who only comes about once a month.  I know it sounds extra, super critical (and I honestly am not trying to be mean), but what made them think this would be a good idea??  I told the primary president just this week that I'm struggling with "health issues" and that if I don't feel well Sunday mornings, I'm not going to be at church. 

4.  Saturday, for the first time, I saw my belly physically move with a kick from The Lentil.  It was really something. 

5.  The Lentil's new favorite time of day is 2:30 - 4 am.  I don't know if that's the time for her kick boxing class or her dance party.  Either way, it feels about the same.

6.  I guess it's time to admit that I have a real, honest to goodness pregnant belly.  I know this because within the last two weeks or so, the stretch marks have begun.  I read on the Internet the other day that only 30% of all pregnant women get stretch marks.  I was sure I'd be in the 70% that don't - mostly because I already feel ripped off that I have to be in the 20% of pregnant women who are sick past the first trimester.  I mean, I've gotta catch a break somewhere, right?  Wrong.  The funny thing about it is that half of the stretch marks aren't even on my tummy - they're on my sides and even one on my back.  I think about all of these women with these beautiful pictures of themselves exposing their pretty, bare, pregnant bellies...ummm....that's totally not going to be me.  EVER.

7.  Kansas lost this weekend.  Wrecked my entire bracket.  There's no way I can win now.  This angers me.