Discouraged

1.  I generally consider myself to be an upbeat, positive person.  But lately, I feel like all I can see are the bad things.  And that makes me discouraged.  Discouraged about everything - I'm not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. 

2.  I'm pretty discouraged at the whole running thing.  I've reached the part of the C25K program where I'm supposed to run for 25 minutes at a time.  Last Friday, I did two ten minute runs with a three minute brisk walk in between and very nearly died.  Of course, I also didn't stretch at the end of that run because there was a Creepy McCreeperson sitting at the bench I usually stretch at.  Anyway, how am I supposed to run for 25 minutes when I can't even run for 10?  Carolyn being in the hospital put me off the program for an entire week and going back felt like starting all over again. 

3.  I barely made it to church yesterday.  Because I was busy trying on outfit after outfit that either didn't fit or didn't fit right.  I was on the verge of tears the entire time.  I guess it was just one of those days.

4.  I also feel like I'm constantly appologizing to people for telling them no.  Two weeks ago, I was asked to fill in at work for someone else on a day I don't usually work.  I tried to manipulate it to where I could, but it ended up that I couldn't because Husband was going to have to be in Houston.  The girl was mad and I told her I was sorry about seven times.  Then, last week, someone called to ask if I could work and apparently I didn't get back to them in a timely enough manner.  They were upset because they'd had to cancel their appointment.  I told her I was sorry twice and all she could do was tell me how mad she was.  I feel like people think that since I am "just a stay-at-home-mom" (for the most part), I should be able to drop everything and rush to help.

5.  There are some good things, though.  The first is that Carolyn is learning how to put garbage back in the trash instead of taking it out and leaving it all over the house.  Now the trick it to teach her that only the things I say go in the garbage actually go in - instead of keys and cell phones.

6.  And, it looks like my one client's paperwork is finally straightened out so I'll get to start seeing her again next week.  Yay!  I've missed her.  She cracks me up.

7.  Carolyn is also doing two more things:  clapping for the contestants on Wheel of Fortune and spinning in circles, making herself dizzy, and falling down.  It's hysterical.

8.  The Judy has sent me her new iPod Shuffle so I can put music on it for her.  She says she can't do it because she doesn't know how.  Any song recommendations for her?  You know, beside Ricky Martin?

9.  We got another giant box of baby clothes this past week from Thanet's sister-in-law.  They always show up at the exact right time!

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