1. Ok, let me get this out first and foremost: The pastor who is organizing the "Burn the Koran Day" is an idiot. I mean, could you really be more ignorant? Nope. You can't. The funniest thing about the entire situation, however, is what I read yesterday on Yahoo. It was an article about how Angelina Jolie has condemned the Quran burning. We listen to Angelina Jolie because she is apparently the epitome of all that is right and good in the world. An expert on morality. And integrity. I'm sorry, but I can't take anyone who's been married to Billy Bob Thorton seriously.
2. The broken (400 pound) TV has been replaced. You get faster, better service when your husband works at Conn's! We now have a flat screen. It's beautiful. And smaller. And therefore, it takes up 1/8 as much space. Since having Carolyn and cramming baby stuff into every nook and cranny, space is precious. The man who installed it kept talking to me about "components". I just starred at him with a blank look on my face and said, "Um, can you just show me how to turn it on and off?"
3. I don't understand how to be a wife and a mother at the same time. Even if Carolyn has had a good day, by the time Husband gets home at night (between 8 and 9 pm), I'm beyond exhausted. There's no dinner ready, the house is a mess, and I'm usually carting around a screaming baby. I don't have any kind of interesting or stimulating conversation topics because the only thing I've done all day is feed the baby, burp the baby, and diaper the baby. There's no compassion left over for Husband if he's had a bad day. I feel so guilty. Thanks to the constantly crying baby, there's no time to love each other - we can't even eat dinner together because one of us holds her while the other one eats. So, what do I do? Even when Husband's at home, I miss him...I miss us together.
4. I'm leaving to go home on Saturday for a few weeks. I'm excited but at the same time, I'm scared out of my mind to travel alone with a baby. I'm just hoping Carolyn won't be that baby - the one that cries the entire flight.
5. We still have no child care set up for Carolyn when I go back to work in a month. I soooooo don't want to put her in daycare, so I've been trying to find someone to care for her in their home. No one that's been willing to do it can adhere to our schedule or lives so far away, it wouldn't make sense for them to keep her. If anyone has any ideas, PLEASE let me know. Leaving her with anyone makes me so anxious, I don't know what to do.
6. Carolyn cried and cried yesterday afternoon - even through a 20 minute walk and a car ride. At least her crying doesn't sound as loud outside the house.
7. I hate Mondays and Wednesdays. Husband is gone from 7 am till 9 pm. That's a long time to be alone with a crying baby.
6 comments:
Erin, I know that you don't know me since I stumbled on your blog one day and have been following ever since. I too had trouble when I had to leave my son with a sitter. The worst part is that 2 weeks before school started, I had to find a new sitter. God had that worked out for me since the sitter he used to go to was great. I let the sitter set his schedule while he was at her house. I found that it worked best for everyone that way. I also took him to her for a few hours a couple of days before I had to be back at work full time. I found that worked great for everyone. Hope that helps. Know that there are others out there that go through the same thing you are going through.
Shannon
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How long will you be in RV for??
Emery, Lucy, and I are heading to Ut and Nv for a vacation too! We'll probably be in the valley from the 25th-30th!
We could have our first playdate for the girls. Not that they'd remember. Or play together. But still...! :)
Think of the crying as this....at least when they are little it is still cute...now when they are 4 and 8 and still crying, it isn't cute and it just makes you mad...If you actually knew me then I would come take carolyn from you for a couple hrs and just rock and sing to her..I don't mind at all when babies cry, for some reason it has never bothered me. I guess I think they are crying for some reason but if I had a magical power it would either be to levitate them when they are sleeping and put them in their bed without moving them (my 2 always woke up when i tried to get out the chair from rocking them) or to be able to read their minds( My oldest had colic really bad and was on prescription medicine for it) :-) Good luck!
Erin, what are the days/hours that you need someone to take care of Carolyn?
We're definitely in agreement about the ignorance of the pastor in Fla.
I think every mom can relate to your post--I nodded my head when I read your blog. Hang in there--it can feel overwhelming. A good friend told me that God will never burden us with more than we can bear--that seemed to really help me. Now that my children are past the infant stage it is hard to believe that they were so little once. Love on her all you can while she'll let you. One day she'll be so busy you'll have to ambush cuddle. :)
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