I Cried. Again.

You all know.

My biggest fear.

Because apparently six pelvic exams in June and July weren't enough.

I was scheduled for the post-baby pap smear yesterday.

Carolyn didn't nap all morning and started to cry in earnest at about 12:30 after projectile vomiting all over two sets of my clothing.

She kept crying until I went got in the car at 3.

I sat in the waiting room for 1.5 hours.

She screamed almost the entire time.

If you thought having to put your feet in stirrups is horrible normally, try doing it with your baby wailing in her car seat.

The Doctor told me I needed to relax so he could do the exam.

I told him that I would in just a minute, that I was having a pretty tough day. 

Then I started to cry.

Really hard.

I apologized profusely.

He told me we didn't have to do the exam at all if I didn't want to.

I didn't.

He said he's not worried about me having cervical cancer, so maybe we could skip it.

I told him I'm not worried about that either.

I took my crying baby and went home.