1. Carolyn started this new thing last night. Where she's decided to wake up every two hours. And then not go back to sleep. She was giving me three hour stretches and after eating, she went straight back to sleep. I guess I shouldn't have complained...
2. Those little snaps on the baby sleepers have become my number one nemesis. I can't get them undone or done up in the middle of the night. And the fact that it's attached to a screaming baby doesn't help things one bit.
3. The Judy leaves tomorrow. I'm so far beyond terrified to be alone with this baby, I can barely think straight. Mom's the one that calms the baby down at night when I'm so tired, I can't go any longer. She's the one who walks her up and down the hall at 7pm when she's crying. How am I going to do this alone all day long?? Plus, I can't tell you how lonely I'm going to be. No one tells you how socially isolating having a new baby can be.
4. We took Carolyn to the doctor again this morning to be weighed - after four days of both breast feeding and formula supplementation, she's gained nine ounces! YAY!
5. I went to my own doctor's appointment yesterday only to be told that I was going to have to pick the surgical glue off my own incision. Crap, it hurt. But I now kind of feel like I did on the day Carolyn's umbilical cord fell off - one less thing to have to think/worry about!
6. And speaking of the doctor, I found out what nine months of nausea/vomiting and consequently having a baby can do for you. I've officially lost 34 pounds (which I'm rounding up to 35 just because I can) in the last three weeks. This is funny to me because my stomach is bigger than it ever has been...so where did the extra 25 pounds lost come from (I gained 10 with the pregnancy)?
7. My body shape is really weird to me now. I feel kind of large through the hips - something I've never felt before. My skin on my stomach is saggy and stretch mark riddled - boy, I wish I could cut that part off!
8. I only think about three things everyday: feeding Carolyn, how long Carolyn sleeps, and how long I sleep. Nothing else is even on my radar. This is going to have to stop because I still have other responsibilities that have to be taken care of.
9. Tomorrow I'm going to start focusing on taking more pictures.
6 comments:
I loved the nightgowns that just had elastic at the bottom so you didn't have to do the snaps and zippers all bleary-eyed at 2am. Carters makes them. Brilliant. :) Keep treading water and you'll soon feel like you aren't struggling for breath. And call me if you like. I'll keep you company. Plus I have like 3000 unused minutes that are rolling over and I have to use sometime. :) Love ya lady!
I agree with Heather about the nightgowns. And about the treading water and struggling for breath. That summarizes my last couple of months perfectly. It doesn't matter if it is your first or fourth, it always takes quite a while to adjust to a new baby, especially mentally. It will get better though. Hang in there!! And I can't wait to see more pictures.
Don't worry, it'll all fall into place!
I was scared too...I never wanted my significant other to leave to play poker or have his "daddy time" cause I was worried I'd do something wrong!
But it clicks..I promise..
Oh and yes, you'll learn to love your new body shape eventually...I'm learning mine isn't so bad...
If you keep nursing you may loose even more weight. Plus your body will continue getting back to normal and all the extra skin on your stomach will go away...it just takes awhile.
The three things you are thinking about everyday won't change for awhile! Those are still on the top of my thought list.
As my mom always says when I'm going through something really hard: This too shall pass. Sometimes it seems like it never will, but yet it always does. I've figured out why babies are so sweet and adorable -- so we will love them in spite of all we have to sacrifice for them (i.e. body, sleep, sanity, etc.). You've made it this far...and you will continue on even after your mom goes home. Really.
Erin, ANYTIME you need anything, please call. I can come help out, sit with you, snuggle that baby any time you need me.
The most important thing I learned with Gabi was to stay calm, which is a hard thing when you're so sleepy and stressed. But, anything you can do - from getting in the car and driving around, taking a soothing bath, or a little retail therapy here and there - will help the baby.
I never understood why the grandparents had such a calming effect on Gabi when I would try so hard to get her to stop crying or go to sleep. They'd just hold her for a minute and she was fine. Then it hit me - they weren't stressed. Of course, it's easy for them not to be when they're not up all night. But, I really truly believe that the babies sense that. Heck, they lived inside you for 9 months! They're gonna be tuned in to your emotions!
Just do your best to just keep your nerves calm. Fake it till ya make it. Eventually, things will settle down.
But, in the meantime, give me a call! We'd love to come snuggle that baby while you go sneak in some sanity.
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