1. On Sunday, a lady in the bathroom at church asked me to hold her newborn son while she washed her hands. I panicked. In my head, I ran out of the bathroom screaming. But in reality, I took the baby. You know that babies scare me. And baby boys scare me even more - they have extra parts, you know. Anyway, I successfully held him for 1.5 minutes without him crying or anything (like his head) falling off. He did, however, manage to spit up all over my collar.
2. And speaking of babies, the thing that terrifies me the most about having a baby is that I'm scared I'll feel indifferent toward it. I read blogs of other pregnant women who talk about how they've loved their babies ever since they found out they were pregnant. And how amazing it was to see their babies on the first ultrasound. In all honesty, I still kind of feel like, "Meh. I'm having a baby." I see other newborn babies that sit there like a lump of coal and I think, "How can I really love a fleshy lump of coal?" I already feel horrible about it.
3. The Lentil has two favorite past times - bouncing on my pubic bone and slamming her head into my ribs. Everyone keeps telling me that if I put my hand on my tummy and push her around, she'll move. Not my baby. She's not moving for anyone.
4. The newest Splinter Cell came out for the xBox yesterday. Husband, who's been waiting for it for two years, ran right out and bought the collector's edition. It totally has bonus footage and stuff. I went to bed around 9:30 last night (because yes, I am an old lady) and when I woke up at 11, 12, and 1:30, he was no where to be seen. I guess Sam Fischer needs help finding the men who killed his daughter more than Husband needs sleep.
5. Whoever said that the tired doesn't come back until the third trimester lied. For the last week or so I've barely been able to keep my eyes open. I get home from work and sit there in a stuppor. I know things need to be done, but it's all I can do to just move from one place to another.
6. Also, did anyone else eat constantly? Along with the tired has come a voracious appetite - like I can't get enough into my mouth. I eat and then an hour later I literally feel like I'm starving to death. This is a bad thing because I'm still nauseated pretty much all the time, so there are very few Lentil approved snacks of which I can partake (Fiber One bars, any fresh fruit, and cherry yogurt). She's apparently over her tomato loving stage, which is a shame because I went ahead and stocked up on several six-packs of tomato juice that are now just sitting there.
7. I think I might be a little bit anemic. Red meat is still repulsive to me, but yesterday I took a few bites of a hamburger Husband brought home and about an hour later, I felt better than I had in days. Don't you think it's funny that a girl who used to be almost exclusively a carnivore can't eat meat? I also can't eat chocolate. It makes me sick, sick, sick.
8. My Boss says he's going to build me a trellis for my cucumber plant. I'm pretty excited about it.
9. My hair has decided, without my permission, to become even more frizzy. It has decided that it is neither straight nor curly. There's not a thing I can do with it or about it.
10. I've finally applied for my massage therapy license. I should be a fully certified, ready-to-work therapist in 4-6 weeks.
6 comments:
I love your honesty. I had a dream that I was five months pregnant, and I almost had a panic attack. Seriously. That sort of worries me.
I love your #9!! I am in the same boat there. I try to go curly and half my head is semi-straight, I try to straighten it and it wants to wave, it is extremely frustrating. Not only this but I am no longer loosing hair...I use to take a shower and when I washed my hair I would get a good handful or two, now there is nothing. It is all staying attached and it is extremely heavy and HOT. I have been sporting the ponytail for the past several weeks because there is nothing else manageable to do. I am going today to see about thinning it out a bit and maybe throw some layers in it to see if that helps the situation at all.
In regards to your #2. I never have bonded with any of my babies until I had them. Even today, I had an ultrasound, saw her moving around, and know that I'll be having her in less than a month. Still nothing. I am looking forward to having her, but I haven't ever felt that pre-delivery bond. So don't feel horrible. Some women bond from the moment they know they are pregnant, and others don't. I don't feel like it makes me any less of a mom.
Oh and one more thing...I eat constantly too. But then you get to be about 7 or 8 months pregnant and your stomach is so squished. You want to eat constantly but physically can't. I think that is worse. Especially when you are 9 months pregnant on Thanksgiving. That was pure torture for me.
I never was bonded or even excited about either of my boys till the minute I saw them. I really thought there was something wrong with me, but I think it's normal. I also couldn't eat meat when I was preggo with Gabe, the smell of any meat cooking made me ill, and that was a major problem since meat is my favorite part of any meal. And the tired thing, it's normal too. You know I was worthless most of the time, unless it was lunch time, which always excited me! At least it's almost over (kinda), good luck!
Hey, just found your blog and I love it! I felt like this whole post could have been written by me!
I was SO doggone tired with both my pregnancies from 6 weeks on... the exhausting tiredness was almost worse than morning sickness for me! And yes, I starved to death many times after only eating an hour before - those babies get extra hungry sometimes. And if I by chance didn't eat exactly at noon, the baby would seriously start kicking me, mad. Not kidding. I didn't bond with my first, a girl, until she was 2 weeks old. Because breastfeeding was so painful, and the thought of doing it every 2 hours brought tears on, so I associated her kind of with the pain. So once we switched her to formula at 2 weeks old I warmed right up. My next, a baby boy, it only took a day or two. But yeah, I'm always amazed at the whole "bond at first sight" thing, cause it never happened to me. And my naturally curly hair went pretty almost straight during both of them... except not totally, it's just an ugly wave now. And I never had acne growing up, but I had it during pregnancy. Weird, weird stuff. Glad to know you! : )
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