WARNING: This is not a positive post. It is me complaining. And telling the truth. If you haven't had babies, this might make you never want one. Proceed with caution.
This pregnancy update is more for the sake of any fertile female progeny I happen to create than for anyone else. As I've been going through this pregnancy, I keep wondering if everything is normal. People keep pointing me back to my mother. Well, how did your mother feel? When did her morning sickness stop?
Hell if she knows! Every time I ask her something she either laughs at me or says, "Oh, Erin, I don't know. I just know you live through it."
I guess I should cut her some slack since the last time she was pregnant was 30 years ago. And she already had six other babies to take care of by then. And she's never had a very good memory to begin with, which isn't helped at all by her reluctance to write anything down.
So, here it goes - all the nitty-gritty details that no one wants to hear because it's FAR too much information:
1. I'm almost 15 weeks and the morning sickness (which really comes whenever it feels like it...morning, noon, night...or a combination of all three) continues. If anything, it's gotten worse. I've been on Zofran but last week managed to throw up several times while taking it. What makes it even worse is that until my mouth starts vomit-watering, I can't tell the difference between sick, hungry, bloated, etc.
2. I finally got through taking the progesterone lozenges. They were gummy and grainy at the same time. I hope my progesterone levels are up to par because I don't think I could handle having to take them ever again.
3. My intestines seem to have ceased working - like at all. When they do decide to work, I'd better be near a toilet because I have to go RIGHT NOW. My bladder, on the other hand, is working just fine. In fact, I'm nearly sure I now have four little bladders instead of one big one. Because I have to go to the bathroom about once every 20 minutes...and it's only a little bit, but it feels like I'm flooding over if I don't go immediately. Oh, and also, the pelvic floor muscles - already starting to loosen up, meaning I pee when sneezing. Isn't it a little early for that?
4. I'm taking Benefiber. Like an old woman. At least it dissolves in my favorite beverage, so I don't really have to deal with taste or texture of anything.
5. I've had a headache for three months. Tylenol works for two hours. It's on the left side of my head from just above my ear, wrapping around to my eye.
6. I have my next doctor's appointment this afternoon. I'm hoping we'll finally get a heartbeat. I'm still not sure there's really anything in there and half convinced that I've just had the flu for three months.
7. I'm still not showing. At least I don't think I am. Thanks to all the vomiting, my clothes fit better than ever. Of course, I guess when you have as much chub as I do on my tummy, it's hard to see anything anyway.
8. The hair on my face that has always been blonde is now turning black. I was sitting in my car the other day and I turned my face to find I almost had a full beard on one side - like long black hair. It was grody. I'm scared there's more I'm not seeing. I might have to go for a full facial wax.
9. People keep asking me if I'm excited to be pregnant. Excited? How can I be excited? I feel like death warmed over daily. So far I'm not seeing any of the benefits of pregnancy - you know, the thicker hair (except on my face), the glowing skin, the ability to get out of doing stuff I don't want to do, etc. Plus, I'm terrified to be a parent. I might have mentioned that before.
10. The only thing that keeps me going is reading what my baby's doing now. He's apparently swimming around like a little fish. I hope he's having a good time. That would make one of us.
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Yeah, I can't wait to get pregnant. :P
Erin, whoever said that women "glow" during pregnancy misunderstood the gleam of sweat following a vomit session. Being preggers is miserable. Even the healthy, shiny, glowy women are suffering with something - believe me.
My mom always told me when I complained that God made women miserable while pregnant so that they'd be happy to endure the trials of labor just to get it over with. In other words, you're being prepared.
Also, my mom would always say something derogatory about "Mother Eve." I know she's awesome and everything but it did help to send her a nasty look up to heaven every now and then.
The good news is that in a few weeks, you'll probably start your "nesting" phase - where you're so busy organizing closets and registering for baby goodies that you'll completely forget how scared/miserable you are.
I promise promise promise that you're going to love being a mommy so much that you'll look back and think it was totally worth it.
PS - If you ever need to borrow Ellie, she's a great sympathizer of pregnant women. She and I used to have A.M. commiserating sessions together. She gets it.
I feel your pain!!! Make sure you stay hydrated! I got super dehydrated at 13 weeks and had to go to urgent care for an IV. (Zofran in an IV is so much better than the pills! I felt good after about 5 minutes).
A few things...
1. Just ignore the people that say that they never threw up, or that they felt better after 12 weeks. It never helps to listen to them.
2. I still threw up everyday after i started taking Zofran, the difference was that I could eat again.
3. Avoid people with the stomach flu! Avoid people with children with the stomach flu!
4. If you are planning on getting an epidural when you have your baby, tell the nurse right when you get there that you need zofran in your IV before you get it...Epidurals make people feel a little sick, but since you already throw up all the time it is almost unavoidable.
5. I promise that once this baby comes out you will feel better! I didn't miss being pregnant at all...I still feel a little sick at the thought of getting pregnant again.
I really hope you are not sick the whole time. Sometime in my 7th month I felt somewhat better...but that is when the heart burn hit...
Also, just so you know, there is another drug beyond Zofran that they can give you. They just don't have pills for it. The women that get it have to wear an IV all the time. (That is what they gave me when I got the flu from my nephew and the Zofran wasn't working)....
Good luck! The time will pass, and soon you will have your little baby, and their head is not that wobbly for very long....
So babies bring supa-geri?
No, baby girl, they bring the opposite. Nothing moves. At least in my body. Apparently everyone's different. Good grief, I'm getting tired of people saying that to me!
9 months is a freaking long time to be pregnant. i know you will think it's ridiculous, but enjoy not showing. there will be plenty of months when you are huge, and the only thing in the world you want, is to be back to your normal size. unfortunately, if you nurse, you won't feel back to normal until baby is weaned. at least i didn't especially enjoy packing that milk around ALL THE TIME. but i did it -- because it's best for the baby....and also a heck of a lot cheaper than formula....and formula smells bad too.
ps - when i was pregnant with cameron, spook krenka told me he could tell i was pregnant because i had that "glow". it's called oil, spook, and telling me that, doesn't make me feel any better about it.
Great post! As me being prego with you I feel your pain! I remember with my first I was so worried about him inside me and how do the drs know that nothing is wrong, and how do I know he is going to be okay, and what if I have an alien child. Trust me tons of questions that I probably shouldn't have concerned myself with. I also hate people that say pregnancy is the best time of their lives and they feel great. REALLY? I have never been a fan of pregnancy. I think it is cool to feel them kick and move (at about 18-20 weeks) and then for the rest of the time. But by the time you get to 34+ weeks it feels like you are getting the crap beat out of you because that little baby is strong.
You will make a wonderful mom. I know you are heard it and will hear it all the time, but you will be fine. Babies are wonderful and kind of dog like (not in a bad way) just love you unconditionally. You make them cry themselves to sleep when they wake up they still smile at you and give you hugs and kisses. They love their parents and you guys will do great. The first is a starting point and trust me I would do things different today with Kaysen but you live you learn. He is still a good boy and loves everyone.
I hope you start to feel better soon. Once the vomiting stops I think it will be a little easier on you. I also hope those headaches go away. That sucks! Good luck and thanks for the wonderful blog!
Complain all you want. You've earned it.
I have never enjoyed being pregnant. In fact I dread being pregnant (kind of ironic since I keep getting pregnant). I agree that the 9 months of pregnancy makes labor and delivery seem like a cake walk. The only thing I enjoy while being prego is feeling the baby move, which for my first didn't happen until about 22-23 weeks. Hang in there. And you do deserve to cpmplain all you want.
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