I am a peacekeeper by nature. I will do literally anything to prevent a disagreement. What I'm wondering today is whether or not peacekeeper actually equals weenie.
I don't stand up for myself. I don't call people out when they're wrong or lying about important things. I am VERY easy to manipulate. I used to think it was because I am a pretty chill person, meaning that I don't really care what other people do or want as long as it doesn't conflict with my values or break the law.
But, it's gotten to the point with one person in my life that I feel like I am being used and abused. I've written about this before. It's like being bullied all day everyday. I watch as this person practices what amounts to egregious obnoxious-ism (which I don't think is an actual word, but it will be when I send it in to Webster's).
I don't dare stand up to them (or anyone else for that matter) for a few reasons: #1 This person thinks they are NEVER wrong and will fight to the death to prove it. #2 They will not change even if I do say something. #3 They will make my life even more miserable than it already is. Believe me. I tried once and my life was hell for two weeks. #4 Conflict literally makes me sick to my stomach.
The only good news is that I don't have to deal with this person for the next couple of weeks. Sigh of relief. A respite from tyranny. And time to plan a non-weenie retaliation...
2 comments:
Maybe you should leave this person an anonomos letter telling them how you feel.
And then I can show up at this persons door step, ring the bell and when they open the door I can punch them in the stomach and while they drop to their knees and cry "Why?" I'll just point my finger at them and say "You know why!" (if you don't know what I'm talking about here, you must see the movie "What happens in Vegas")
I understand completely.
I'm so easy going and hate confrontion so much that I have let people walk all over me. It's not good. It hard to know what to do. Sorry. :S
There may be no need to write a letter - someone told me just the other day that this person has found my blog. Awesome. Just what I wanted.
Can I still sign up for the punching in the stomach thing, though?? I think that would really solve things.
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