I'm going to have to start minding the blogs I read right before I go to bed. I keep reading all of these blogs about my friends who have recently had babies. It's giving me non-stop baby nightmares.
Last night I had another one: I magically had this baby but no one, including myself, knew that I had been pregnant. I was at this party with my entire family and was so relieved because there were plenty of people to hold my baby who still couldn't hold it's own head up (which, if you know me at all, is my greatest fear). However, they kept saying to me, "Erin, I think the baby is hungry" or "Don't hold him like that!" or "I think the baby needs it's diaper changed."
And my response to EVERYTHING anyone said about the baby? TEARS. Severe anxiety. And screaming at all of them, " HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT? I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT BABIES!"
The worst thing was when someone asked me the baby's name and I just stared at the baby and said, "I don't know. The dad isn't here so I can't name it."
I'm seriously going to have to start reading pregnant and baby books right now before I even think about getting pregnant. Maybe then I wouldn't feel so traumatized.
5 comments:
Oh man! That's crazy! I remember I had a dream once that I was trying to breastfeed at church and didn't know how to do it! Major anxiety! Don't worry though, it will all be ok. Just keep telling yourself that :)
Why didn't you just run around screaming, I don't know nothing 'bout birthin' no babies! I think the dream may have ended better.
I think that you are sick and tired of unwanted "helpful" suggestions from everyone. And, since babies are everywhere you are and everywhere you look, that's the babies part. So, avoid people giving you unwanted advice and you should be fine. How's that for unwanted advice? :)
I think more than anything I'm scared to death to have a child and not know what to do with it.
I seriously thought I was the only one afflicted with this. My husband thinks my dreams are hilarious... until I kick him while he sleeps.
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